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Look at all those beautiful little feet two people can create!

Look at all those beautiful little feet two people can create!

Sunday, August 21, 2011

MY stuff...

I have a super amazing friend who wrote me a little email just yesterday...as I read it, I couldn't help but laugh out loud...I wasn't laughing at her, I was rolling inside because I couldn't count the number of times I had felt the exact same way during my years as Mom.

Her was the jest of her "complaint"...
Nothing is off limits, everyone is into everything all the time, there is no privacy, they are always into my stuff,..  (she said it much more eloquently and precisely than I have, but I think you can visualize this, especially if YOU are the Mom)

Throughout my (almost) 26 years of being the Momma,
I have often wondered if anything really is Mine? 
Do I have MY STUFF? 
Or do I simply think I have stuff that is all mine? 
Hmmmm....Well...here is my conclusion,
when you are the Mom,
nothing (nope, not a single thing) is really all yours. 
I'd like to think so, but nope, not one solitary item is safe from all these kiddos...
not my clothes,
or my makeup,
or my tweezers,
or my favorite pen,
or my shoes,
not my favorite chocolate,
not even the stamps in my drawer that are for mailing bills or invoices ~ they are used as stickers,
not my bed or my pillow,
not my food or my drink,
not my socks ~ I'm certain I did not put those grass-stains & holes there,
lotion gone when I need it,
the shampoo and conditioner from my shower -- nope that's not mine either,
chap stick or lip gloss -- must not really be mine,
jewelry, belts, hair ties,
my car keys,
nothing is safe from those little people ~
They all believe that My stuff is fair game...
Community Property...
Not Mom Property ~
it's really here for the entire world to share.

Aaauuugggghhhhhh -- 

And while we are at it, why don't we just go into the hovering child...they want to be in on every conversation, they usually have a little tid-bit to add here and there, they want to be with you always, they must not realize that they are not adults.  Not so sure what must be going through that little mind???

Sadly, I must admit, I have been found guilty of yelling out ugly little phrases that might sound something like this,
"That is MY Stuff, stay out of it!" 
"No, not the stamps again, those are mine, your stickers are in this drawer!" 
"Where are my tweezers, why do you need them, why do you have to take them, WHY can't YOU put them back?" 
And from the shower, "Where is my conditioner????  OR Shut off the hot water, don't you know I am in the shower and this hot water is MINE?"
"Where is MY paper cutter,
 or MY scissors,
how about MY tape?" 
From my little ones all the way up, I have been heard to say,
"Those are my shoes, why are the covered in MUD?" 
...even to my boys who will grab my flip flops to go run outside and then leave them heaven knows where!"  (Thank goodness everyone has bigger feet now than I do, with the exception of my two little ones...) 
My desk is another one,
it is no longer my desk,
 it has been taken over my the masses! 
I thought I had fixed that little problem and put a nice little table up in MY room,
well, now they all love that space too, and it's MINE!
I don't even have legs that belong to me...my lap is used up most of the time holding little bodies or big bodies
(BUT, I am not even going to complain about this one!  At least they love me and want to sit on top of me!)

Which brings me to my true, deep down feelings about MY STUFF...
and the kids who think MY STUFF is THEIR STUFF! 
IT IS WONDERFUL...
It is a blessing...
I believe it speaks of the safety they feel...HOORAY!!!
It is okay to use all of my stuff or eat or drink all of my stuff, it is okay to mess up all of my stuff and sometimes even lose all of my stuff, because they know I am still gonna love 'em all just the same, because they rank way up at the top of all my stuff!  I may go off in a tyrant sort of way, flipping out that My Stuff isn't the same as it was before, but that's about as bad as it's ever going to get.

Oh and let us not again forget our little hoverers'...
Those adorable little people wish to be with us, they love our company, they must love what we have to say, we need to soak these moments up and treasure them...I know while in the moment of a hovering child, sometimes we feel a little "crowded", BUT we are actually really sweetly blessed ~ they will not always wish to hang around ~ there comes a few years when we don't rank up there quite as we once did...those are the days you'll wish you would have allowed, even encouraged a little more hovering

If my kiddos tip-toed around worried about what was okay to touch or do or eat or drink or listen in on; that would be the real problem...(I still wish they'd stay out of my chocolates)... but, I would much rather they felt safe and free to enjoy ALL the good things in life.  (Alright, even my chocolate!)

Soon enough, they'll all be grown and gone;
and then I will walk around wishing those little someones would mess up and move about all the stuff that I now wish I didn't have to call just "MY STUFF".

Thursday, August 18, 2011

Yep, I got it good!

Okay, so I need to thank whomever has been praying for us...
I'm kinda thinkin' that maybe Heavenly Father just wanted me to pay attention, to re-focus (AGAIN), to search for the blessings that surround me. 

Anyway ~

Last night I wrote a post and was waaayyyyyyyyyyy to whiny...so sorry...
But some days are just like that...

Well, my mini-van is up and running!  Yippee!!! 
Drove it a couple of times this morning and it seems to be doing okay. 
Big van ~
still in the works ~
hopefully tonight this miracle man of mine will be able to work his magic and we'll have two cars that run again...
(keepin' my fingers crossed)...
if not tonight, I know he'll have it as soon as possible ~
that's just the way he is...He never gives up! 
He is a wonderful example to me and to our kiddos!

I felt so sorry for him last night and felt a tremendous amount of guilt...
he came in after working on the vans, not sure what time it was and saw that I was writing away on my blog. 
He read my words and then as we were snuggling and talking, he said,
"I'm sorry your life is so hard." 
I wanted to cry...

My life is not hard...it is beautiful, just some days are harder than others...
What I wanted him to know the very most was that my worry and my stress were for him...
He works so hard, does everything he can to provide for our family, I've never seen anyone work like this wonderful husband I have ~ He is simply willing to do whatever it takes, nothing is beneath him and I love that about him, yet it seems that the troubles he has to face are never-ending, I just wish I could protect him from all of that...just wrap him up and not let anymore yucky stuff enter his bubble.  But we all know that's not gonna happen ~ so instead I'll just wrap my arms around him and hope he always knows how appreciated and loved he is. 

I am just filled with an overwhelming love for him and for my life...

I have a very sweet friend, Jeneen, who just wrote a beautiful post and I would like to ditto all of her words...

I really wouldn't change anything about my world ~ I have the best life...struggles, trials and all...

And if I had all the money in the world and could do anything I would wish...

Guess what??? ~
I wouldn't change a thing...I'd still wake up each day and dance in the kitchen with my hubby and play around with my kiddos, spending the day learning and growing together, and hopefully at the end of each day go to My Heavenly Father in prayer thanking him for all of the goodness that surrounds me!

Yes, life really is that good; broken down cars and all!  :0)

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Some days are just like that...

Do you ever think to yourself thoughts that might resemble these:

"Really?  How much more can I take?"










"WHY ME?"

"I'm tired of this testing thing!"

"I'm obviously not very bright, if I were...You probably wouldn't have to keep trying to teach me the same lesson over and over and over!"


Well, some of these not-so-nice thoughts raced through my mind this evening...and then a beautiful thing happened!

But first...
A little background to help set the stage for this beautiful moment...
 ~ a few weeks ago, our truck died after we had leant it out to someone...okay, we can deal with that, not a happy moment, but certainly not the end of the world.

Shortly after the truck incident, our desktop computer (which is our BUSINESS computer) decided it's life had come to an end.

A few days ago, our big van was on its last leg, so my hubby went to work fixing away...well, it has been a major pain the tushie for him...as I write, he is STILL diligently working away on it.  Last I checked it was still spraying fuel all over the place...not a good thing, especially when gas costs what it does...we don't want to be wasting that precious stuff!

Today, while this dear man of mine is working on the big van, our mini-van overheated and died, leaving myself and 6 of the Young Women I teach stranded (only momentarily) on the side of the road.

Add to all of this the fact that work is not nearly as busy as would be desired...
school is right around the corner and I want so desperately to stock up on school supplies
(not gonna happen...again, really not a big deal)
but I am just feeling a tad bit displeased with our current situation...

I guess I just really don't like trying to decide which bills can be paid
and which ones simply cannot,
or having to budget too tightly when I'd love to just go blow a huge stack of bills on some delish groceries,
or having to wait on that very much desired curriculum I'd love to add to my kiddos schedule...

Well...
all of this is running rampantly through my mind
as I sit on the side of the road...
now mind you...
I cannot have my little melt-down,
that just wouldn't be appropriate as I have this adorable group of girls in my van...
so I have to keep it together
even though it is the very last thing I really want to do. 
I want to jump up and down
and have myself a little tissy fit,
or maybe rolling around on the ground
hitting my fists
and stomping my feet down
might be a better release
Instead, I just smiled,
made a phone call to take care of these girls,
and then reluctantly dialed my hubby to give him even more bad news. 
His reply was simply, "Find a Match!"

Okay, so are you ready for the beautiful thing that happened?
 I am,
I now need a reminder of how amazing life is after that big ugly list!

Well, we had a couple of leaders in other cars show up to retrieve the girls and take them to our activity...
A little testimony fireside...

And then a friend picked me up...
I couldn't decide if I should just go home and
wallow in self-pity
or go on with the evening as though nothing had ever happened. 
I decided on the latter and am very grateful for that decision.

In the car, I vented just a smidge, okay maybe a little more than a smidge...
I was frustrated and the very last thing I was thinking was anything of a positive, uplifting nature.

So how does it happen,
that during moments of desperation,
the Spirit can just touch our hearts and bring peace to us? 
How is that through all of the hard things are happening around us,
the Spirit helps to point out to me all of the wonders that are right before my eyes on a daily basis? 
How is it that before I know it,
I am standing to bear testimony to all present at this little fireside, of just how mindful my Savior is of me...
even though we have these struggles and these trials,
I know we will be okay,
we will make it through. 
We are just that strong...
we have been through worse...
we have survived...
we will survive! 

I walked away from an evening that could have brought me a restless night of turmoil had I chosen to focus on the difficult things at hand...but instead, through the examples of others and through the touching and promptings of the Spirit, I was able to come away feeling whole and strong and confident in the fact that ALL will be okay with our little family. 

I have come to find that Some days are just hard...
But we have the power within ourselves to come out on top of the world,
IF we choose to.

I'm grateful for the sweet reminders that I received this beautiful night and hope that I can keep a good perspective and remember ~

Some days are just like that...and it really is okay...



Sunday, August 14, 2011

Tea Parties, Tangled, 4-Wheelers, Boats & Temples...

I'm back from my little sabbatical...every time I am away from YOU, my dear blog, I miss you terribly.  Life has been full and I needed a little re-grouping time.  So much to catch up on...

Guess I'll just hit this week's highlights ~ what a magnificent, but crazy full week!!!

Last Saturday, I was lucky enough to enjoy a VERY SPECIAL DAY...this is a yearly treat...2 of my very favorite people in the whole world and I have birthdays all within a very short time span...soooo, each year we get together and go do something fun.  
I look forward to this day every single year! 
It's just a really special time to share with people who mean the world to me! 
LOVE YOU BOTH... 
This year we had a scrumptious breakfast at Miss Tami's Tea House in Meridian...if you've never been, YOU MUST GO
It is really all about us girls...hubbies wouldn't love it nearly enough to go, so grab your sweet friends and make a date! 
Some day I think we should gather a big ol' group of us,
rent the whole place
and dress up in our favorite little party hats
and throw the best tea party ever...
when I sit in this lovely little tea house I secretly wish to be a little girl again...
all dressed up...
so that is the reason for the hats ~
oh, and maybe we should all have the dainty little lace gloves that go up to our elbows...
who is with me on this one???  Let's make a plan!  Okay, moving on...

Monday evening we had the missionaries over for dinner...they spent a little extra time with us and gave such a beautiful lesson on Faith, Prayers & Un-answered prayers, Feeling the Spirit and identifying it...such timely and peaceful words to hear.   I felt so pleased and happy with all that they shared with our family.  What a treat to have them in our home on a regular basis!  Such sweet young men doing such a special work!

This week has been full of planning for SCHOOL ~
cannot believe it is just around the corner. 
I really love this time of year...I feel that I just come alive...so many "things" just come to me...everything falls into place and new pieces find their way into my hands!  I always walk away feeling so blessed and so grateful for the opportunity to have our kiddos home with us!

Tuesday was a mighty full day around the Lytle House...we cleaned like crazy! 
We started working on the classroom ~ this was good and bad. 
The good was that I was quite excited to get things ready for a new year,
the bad was that we started it and had a very short deadline in which to have this room ready for use.  Tuesday evening, I had all of the Young Women in our ward over for a movie night...TANGLED...Love this movie!
 What a great night! ~
AND the classroom was even presentable. 
(Much thanks to my kids for all of their hard work...especially Danielle!) 
The boys hooked up the laptop to our projector and voila ~ huge movie screen...
the girls quoted line after line after line of the movie..
it was delightful to have them all here. 
I REALLY LOVE MY CALLING with all of these sweet girls!!!
Just this past month I gave a talk on "Tangled"...I will have to do a little writing on the significance I found within this gem of a movie...coming soon!  :0)

Thursday night was another marvelous time in my week! 
For those who do not know this about me...
I absolutely LOVE homeschooling mothers and I LOVE events with them! 
Fills my cup to overflowing!!!  
Earlier this spring, the Spirit was overwhelmingly present in my heart that I should lead DHSA, our local Homeschooling Support Group...I fought it pretty hard...but have learned that it does me no good to ignore the Spirit...I do my best to listen and to act when I am asked to do so.  I cannot tell you how very grateful I am that I followed this prompting.  We had our first Mothers' Meeting of the year and it was wonderful...so many amazing women in one place at one time...there is nothing quite like a group of women, with the same purpose at hand, all bouncing ideas back and forth.  You walk away from times like these feeling like you are floating about on a big fluffy white cloud surrounded by a whole bunch of best friends!  What a beautiful night ~thank you to all who were there who made it such a bright spot in my week!

And then I have to cover Friday...it was my birthday...I am tellin' ya' it was quite a celebration around here!  I am one lucky wife, mother and friend!  First I woke up to a bunch of sweet kids and an adorable husband...that sweet man of mine took me out for the day...we had a super yummy breakfast together and then headed out for an adventure! 
He is always great for an adventure...life with him is an adventure...always exciting, never dull, never boring!  Not sure how I got so lucky!!!
We took the 4-Wheeler up the trail to Silver City...
what a perfect day...the weather was outstanding, the scenery breath-taking and the company could not have been better! 
I love it when we just take one 4-wheeler to share because then we can talk and point things out to one another. 
There were so many beautiful wild flowers,
and sweet little butterflies all about,
we saw several hawks soaring overhead,
amazing rock formations
and trees everywhere. 
I counted every water crossing we came upon...16 of 'em...well, one I probably shouldn't have counted, it was more like a puddle, but hey it was water and we crossed it, so I counted it!  This trail was a little more challenging than it had been in the past, due to the water that must have roared down the mountains and through the canyons...the ruts in the middle of the trail were at times a little more intimidating than I was prepared for and the rocks and boulders were everywhere, but we managed through all of it just fine.  It's actually pretty exciting to make it through a "Scary area" and then look back at it knowing you had easily conquered it...might sound kinda silly, but it was mighty fantastic! 
And I have to tell ya'...I think maybe I should just take up riding 4-wheelers everyday...my muscles were more tender and sore after our day out than they are after a day of cardio and weight lifting...didn't expect that.  Must have been all that holding on for dear life that got me!!!  Another little tid-bit of info on me...
some of you may already know this,
but I have, well,
let's call it issues...
I cannot sit on the back of a 4-wheeler and ride behind anyone...
scares the tarnation right outta me! 
I still cannot decide if this is a
control issue or a trust issue...
BUT, today, I did it...and I have to add it was on some pretty treacherous terrain...
I just had to keep reminding myself to breathe...I am so lucky to have such a wonderfully patient husband...he just "gets" me and still loves me! 
Well, after we made it up to Silver City, we went into the Idaho Hotel, the 2nd oldest building in all of Idaho...they had freshly baked homemade pies...We just had to have some, after all it was my birthday!  Oh my goodness, might have truly been the very tastiest homemade pie I've ever enjoyed....the crust was perfect!!!  I think I might need to add this to my list of to-do's...MUST learn how to make tremendous Pie Crust...if you have a super recipe....please share!!!

Well, after our delicious pie eating moment (which had an extra little bonus...right outside the window from our seats, we watched an adorable little hummingbird), we headed back on that same trail we'd come up...the hardest part of this is that YOU KNOW what is ahead of you and you have to go back the same way you came...I held my breath a few times and buried my eyes in my hubbies back, YES, I was on the back, behind him, trusting him the entire time!  I think I may have just about squeezed the life right out of him a few times, but he didn't complain too loudly!  :0)

I probably should have paid attention to the fact that he was much more interested in his watch than normal...we arrived home to find a driveway filled with cars and a back yard filled with happy people ready to finish off this perfect day! 
I remember looking at my husband
and saying something to the effect of,
"Do you see me? 
I've been on a four wheeler all day
and you've thrown me a surprise party?! 
I must look terrible!" 
Well, he is MR.WONDERFUL himself,
and he just smiled at me and told me I look beautiful,
so I got out of the car and enjoyed a perfectly wonderful party! 
Okay, there is one thing that made him not so wonderful...
on my birthday cake, he put on the number candles --
Probably because there were too many to count to add single ones...
,
BUT he didn't do it right...
what I saw was the number 122!!! 
He got a good laugh outta that one,
but all I could say is "Man, I look down right amazing for that age!"

Well, you'd think this week should come to a close at this point, but it just keeps on going!

Saturday, we had a boating trip for the Youth in our ward...great, great day!  I think they all had a wonderful time.  Again, I have to say how much I love my calling and how much I enjoy all of these sweet kids...I think I ate a bit too much watermelon and maybe a few too many cookies!  I came home last night and sat down...felt like the first time I'd sat all week...then I spent a little time on Facebook and found sooooo many wonderful birthday wishes...I'm tellin' ya, I feel pretty loved! 

And now we come to this day, Sunday...Sundays are Sundays around here...each morning we wake up, rush about like a bunch of crazy people to make it to church on time and then sit and enjoy a day of renewing ourselves...Today was fantastic... Our son, Bryce, gave his first Sacrament Meeting Talk....he did such an amazing job!  He wrote a beautiful talk on Temples...I am always so surprised and pleased at what young people can come up with...We really do not give them credit for how simply amazing they are!   I really love being a Mom and love watching my kiddos shine! 

I have a truly wonderful life!  Thank you for being part of it!  :0)